It seems that in the midst of our storms we should be shaken and feel defeated. And I did for a quick minute... Well, maybe for a few hours. But the point is, I don't stay down for long. I know and trust and believe God is working in my favor - in our favor - and satan thinks he's got a victory, but he needs to think again. He can't have this marriage or my family, because I'm not battling him in the flesh but with my spirit. I've been through many tough times in my life and I'm getting too old to play games. So I give all my worries, all my stress and anxiety, and my burdens to the one who holds my future!! He's all over me, He's in me, He's through me, and I can feel Him working everything out.
Today, my husband said he noticed the changes in me and asked me how I'm doing it. I told him I've refocused my attention on who God wants ME to be. I've taken this challenge to improve myself from the inside out. It doesn't help me to look good on the outside because when I stand in judgment before God, that's not what He's going to be looking at. I believe He will be like the Father who gave out the talents to his sons. "What have you done with what I gave you?"
It goes back to one of my previous posts about being a good steward. In my life am I being a good steward with the talents God has given me? Am I using them to His glory for His purpose or for my own selfish desires? When I talk the talk am I also walking the walk? Am I a doer, not just a hearer of God's word or am I faking it til I make it? In my finances, am I being wasteful or is what I'm doing honoring to God, my marriage, and my family?
It was nice to hear my hubby's appreciation of my inner glow. As I pray for him daily for the struggles he faces, it's good to know that he is aware of my commitment to grow, not for his approval, but because it's what God desires of me. Parallel to the Proverbs 31 Life, I pray daily to be the wife as described in 1 Peter 3:1-6.
1 Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives,
2 when they see the purity and reverence of your lives.
3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.
4 Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
5 For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands,
6 like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.
If anyone is reading this, let me know what you're doing to be the woman of God, He's called you to be?